needing an update

Well, it has been over a week since I had a chance....no actually its been a week since I decided to update my blog. I have just been so indecisive.....

My life consists of:
-Being at home
-work
-Ryan
-crafts
-and everything else

When I am at home, I hate to admit it, but I generally waste time and just float by. I have been wanting to change that, to be productive, to do something, but I never get around to it (I blame my laziness and long time habit of procrastination). When I am at work I am dying to get home....when I am with Ryan, I am happy, but doing nothing (watching tv....reading....sometimes crafts.) And I am just overall unhappy about this at the moment.

I want to get on the ball, to finally grow up and get organized....to be responsible, reliable, and happy.

It takes baby steps and I have to start somewhere....so let's see what happens......